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English, Drama, and The Endless Struggle

October 8, 2009 1 comment

Not a big update today, still working on my drama assignment, still working on A1 for OOP344 amongst miscellaneous other projects.

I’m really tired these days; I took one less day per week at my job and it has seemed to help but now my motivation is in short supply. What’s really killing me though is this damned drama assignment…

I’ve read so much; I’ve read all that is required of me and then some just on the side. Research, rough drafts, the list goes on, and yet this assignment just will not DIE. It’s actually delaying all of my other assignments which I want to do. What I don’t understand is why it’s so hard! This however is a pattern.

This is not the first time that I’ve been stuck on an assignment and infact this is not my first major either. A number of years ago, I was attending U of  T for computer science; at the time my goal was to get out with a BSc and to specialize in artificial intelligence. In that regard, I took a course called cognitive science (UNI250). I enjoyed that course very much and I averaged 83 on the three tests that we had for the course; however, things were not quite as merry as they had seemed…

As part of the course, we also had to write up two papers about material of our choosing. Both papers relied heavily on research and on scientific journals. Both papers, I didn’t do. I notice a pattern now, I’m extremely aversive to open-ended assignments; unless I know exactly what I want, I can’t go on. This seems to be the case with this assignment as well. What is interesting is that this assignment is much more defined and yet I’m having just as much trouble with it.

This tells me one thing: next time, ask for help right away. I need to be able to define the problem much better before I can proceed. I am literally sick of being blocked by relatively easy assignments that get me NOWHERE.

Ugh, well whatever. This is what I’ve been thinking about for oh… what…. two? three weeks now? It’s a living hell. I want out and I want out quick. I’m working on this drama assignment right now.

Hopefully, I’ll have better luck tonight.